Archive for May, 2009

Cold and Rainy Cape Town and update from RE

Reporting from a cold and wet Cape Town….
actually not quite…. its fffreezing here.
I saw Dr D yesterday – everything is a okay the ovarian cyst from a month ago has shrunk from 5cm to 4 .5 cm. Its kind of weird since I am starting to feel some side pain from the cyst now. Uterine lining is looking good – 7 mm. Seeing my fave Dr again on Tuesday to assess lining again and to decide when to take the ?Gestone shot …..to induce ovulation.

Since Friday I have been so moody . Actually more moody.
Poor Dh .
Dh left today. He had to rush off to Jozi for an important meeting tomorrow but will be back on Thursday. I am staying with my fave aunt here in Rondebosch East..

I love and miss you honey.

May 31, 2009 at 5:55 pm Leave a comment

My Spero

My Spero
Latin
My Hope
One day left till Cape Town. Yippeeee!!!
One day left till base line scan… am so nervous. Hopefully my uterine lining will be great and it will be all systems go!!
Progynova – mood swings…. One minute I am frustrated and angry and the next minute I am a bicket of tears…
I am still trying to finish the montessori assignment. Its taking so long – I think its time to confexx trhat I am losing / or have lost interest…

Job hunt still goes on.

May 29, 2009 at 8:35 pm Leave a comment

We have moved over

If you have not figured it out yet “myspero” from Latin means “My Hope”

Still trying to figure things out…with Word Press

One day left till Cape Town. Yippeeee!!!

One day left till base line scan… am so nervous. Hopefully my uterine lining will be great andit will be all systems go!!

Progynova – mood swings…. One minute I am frustrated and angry and the next minute I am a bicket of tears…

I am still trying to finish the montessori assignment. Its taking so long – I think its time to confexx trhat I am losing / or have lost interest…

Job hunt still goes on.

Continue Reading May 29, 2009 at 10:43 am Leave a comment

He made it !!
Did you see him on tv? He was the gorgeous one who crossed the finish with 3 minutes to spare… yes he had the yellow clown wig on. Funny but still drop dead gorgeous… yes yes I have a reason to be biased.

He has just got his 8th comrades medal. I am SO proud of him.

Now only 3 more medals – the last one God willing will be with his green number.

I am so ecstatic!

On the TTC front- still taking my Progynova – some clever person on fertility friends said take 2 at 5-30 and 2 immediately before you go to bed. Thank You.

No side effects anymore – no muggy heavy head feeling anymore, just dry mouth and thirst… so I am drinking water by the gallon.

Now that the time is getting nearer to do the baseline scan – I am getting nervous and anxoius. Anyone out there got some ideas on how to deal woth that?

May 25, 2009 at 9:57 am Leave a comment

Dh is running his 8th Comrades marathon

My husband is running comrades and I am so worried about him. He has 6 km to finish and has little more than an hour to do it in… he is exhausted. For his sake I hope he finishes – he has trained so hard and I will be disheartened if he does not.

MIley… honey you can do it.

May 24, 2009 at 2:37 pm Leave a comment

I want mummy love

Being through negative ivf’s not only takes its toll on the body but the psyche as well. I am really trying to remin positiv this time – you sending positive vibes out to the universe and all that stuff but I am really so terrified . Idonot want to be disappointed again – I don’t want to feel like I have been run ovewr by a 5 ton truck again. I don; want my heart to be broken. I have so much love to give and I want to be loved in return unconditionally too. I love my two neices … I am always showering them with gifts and hugs and kisses … but they are not mine. They have mums and dads – they go home to them and I go hme to an empty home with empty rooms. My dh is so cool and wonderful to me. He loves me so much and he admits that he will be happy to carry on with his life child free – he has so many plans and aspirations to travel to do this and that. hE says he is quite satiafied being without children as he is glad he does not hacve to contend with sleepless nights and dirty diapers or tantrums…
He just does not get it….
I want to feel whole and complete.

I want to cuddle a little baby of my own. I want to shower him/her with love… and I want to be loved unconditionally.
Am i being greedy or too demanding?
Is it true that a woman is only complete when she is a mother?

May 22, 2009 at 11:22 am Leave a comment

A hurricane behind the mask

Just because I am smiling does not mean that everything is fine.
The face I wear is simply a mask hiding a storm beneath the surface – a hurricane of emotions, hope, dreams and dread.
Started the progynova today.
Seeing my re on saturday the 30th.
we wait.

May 20, 2009 at 1:58 pm 2 comments

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